Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Triple “Sages” of Darkness
-The Origin of Self Creation-

Peace Family!

Today I wanted to build about the idea of Triple Darkness and Self Creation. I was thinking about this because it’s fundamentally the most critical Concept that we deal with. It’s at the very foundation (core) of our Worldview, it defines our living articulation of God-Centerness and it determines how we engage and assess existence. Without a clear, concise articulation and conceptualization of how Self was manifested through Triple Darkness it’s impossible to truly live out this Culture and feel it in your heart. In essence, this way of life becomes a systematic “BELIEF in a Mystery God” because obviously a person doesn’t KNOW who, what, when, where, why, and how they got here. The “Belief” that the Original Man is God can only take you so far! That shaky shit hinges upon the different layers of currents that support and oppose that belief. If they around people that agree with them then they got they head up and chest poked out. If something comes along that sounds better then that’s usually what people go along with. There are many who so-called “used to be God or Earth”, “was in the NGE” or whatever b.u.t. the reality is that they never were! They were only “Believers” who never really grasped the underlining significance of Self Creation. I don’t care if they learned to parrot 120, spit Mathematics or have a Divine Attribute, they simply never “knew” the essence. Why, because they had no foundation. I cannot stress enough that if a person never studied physics, quantum mechanics, chemistry, biochemistry, biology, physiology and etc -all components that conceptually forge our Mathematical Theology- then they cannot say or practically apply (without doubt) the idea of being God or even Earth! Belief is often like a blast of crack. Without it you're down and when you get it your higher than Bob Marley in a plane over Mt. Everest! Because of the shallow addiction of unfulfillment, their life revolves around trying to do whatever they can to get that next hit. That’s why many of these addicts are fanatical extremists about Social Gatherings. They need it often because it reinforces their belief in who they are. If you cee niggahs traveling around the country just to attend some BS Ego-trip NGE functions, usually it’s an Ego thing. Some dudes just want to be ceen, not necessarily cee. I know dudes that continue to organize Growth and Development Conferences/Summits year after year yet they still continue to smoke Newports! It’s not the cigarette, it’s the principle people. I know females who literally “ain’t settled” worst than the Devil yet they’ll swear up and down that whatever they doing is actually “founded” in Peace! When I cee stuff like this I rhetorically ask myself, “What the hell is that all about?!”

Anyway, for those of you who are lacking a conceptual foundation of your own Self Creation I wanted to share with you a basic breakdown of my understanding of Triple Darkness. None of that “Yo’ God it’s Knowledge, Wisdom and Understanding” bullshit. I’m talking about real Creation. Well enjoy and please cross-reference what I share with you. Again, this is to give you a view of our foundation. When we say that we are “Scientists” that ain’t no metaphor, that shit is real! Supreme Mathematics, Supreme Alphabet and 120 Lessons serves as a Practically Applied Blueprint of this God-centered Conceptualization.

Allah is “Self”, created from a state of No-thing-ness (Nothingness) or an Omnipresent Potentiality; a womb of Triple Darkness. This “Dark Matter” state of Nothingness (no particular thing, aim or purpose) was all things simultaneously (“O” = Cipher). Allah, the Universal Mind/Intangible Intelligence was/is Absolute (All things). This Absolute state was/is fundamentally Composed of Dark Matter (the precursor to Matter) which is the “Undifferentiated Substance of Reality”. This state of Nothingness caused Allah (Self) to realize Self, therefore “Nothing” (inactivity) created Allah (Me). I, Allah always was and always will be and no birth record can be ascribed to me, Allah (The Universal Mind).

This “spark” or Electrical Implosion became “Self Realization”, the origin of the Universal Mind’s first Thought. Thought as an Intangible Transmitter of the Mind combined with Matter becoming an Intergalactic Synapse. Matter when magnetized formed the first atom, “H” which is Hydrogen. Hydrogen Gas inflamed under intense heat (Electricity) therefore creating what is known as an “H-Bomb”, LET THERE BE LIGHT! This was the origin of the BIG BANG and creation of Light through which the Gases created Liquids and Solids. This BIG BANG created the Galaxies, Universes, this Milky Way, and all Planetary Bodies. This also established the four fundamental forces of nature FIRE, AIR, WATER, and EARTH that manifested Change (The calculation of Change is “Time”). From this Galactic Evolution from a womb of Dark Nothingness, I, Allah manifested existence. Stages (processes) of Creation (Gases, Liquids & Solids) established eternal/internal LAWS. These LAWS are formula’s that “Mathematically” establish and maintain the forces/forms that functionally define them as Organic or Inorganic. What something “is” will functionally be determined by the LAWS it establishes and maintains.

Through this evolutionary process and establishment of LAWS, I, Allah eventually manifested a Terrestrial Home called The Planet Earth (Pangea). Essential to this, I, Allah needed to manifest a conduit Self as the Khalifah within my Creation. I, Allah evolved a physical form or conduit of Consciousness in order to experience Self (Creation). This “realization” or Creation of the physical form can be considered instantaneous since “Time” was not calculated prior to being-ness. In calculative terms of measuring change, this process can be measured in trillions of years.

As Organic/Inorganic life evolved on “Pangea” (Planet Earth as one land mass), the first Self -Hue-man (Man of high concentration’s of the Carbon filament “Melanin” essentially Dark Matter)- alchemically evolved from the four forces of nature (FIRE, AIR, WATER and EARTH) in a centralized location. This centralized location where this evolutionary process transpired on Pangea was called central Asia (so-called Africa). Asia means “land of the rising Sun, or land upon which the Sun first rose”. My Asiatic Being was Black (the Essence from which all color’s and humanity is born), I, Allah in the physical form, the Original and highest conduit (the BRAIN is the repository of the MIND) of Universal Consciousness. The Macrocosm was successfully contained within the Microcosm (as the Microcosm now walked within the Macrocosm). As the Father of Civilization, I, Allah “The Black Man” created the first Stellar Calendar to establish and chart the process of Change which became defined as “Time”. Since I, Allah established the concept of “Time” (Change) I proceeded it, therefore there became no beginning nor ending or established birth record to the physical composition of me, Allah the Black Man. I am the Father of Time.

In order to create the Original Stellar Calendar, I, Allah the Black Man established a system of Alpha-Numeric Glyphs that communicated “Symbolic Imagery”, which is the Mathematical Language of God (Medu-Neter/Metu-Neter). This Stellar Calendar was used to chart the 25,000 year Universal Cycle of the Sun (The Sun’s Glyph was drawn as a “O” with a "black dot" in the center, and symbolized the all-pervading omniscience of Self). This “Clock” (Sun Dial) emphasized the Sun’s “Self Rotation” or 1° Shift that it makes every 72 years. Since the Stellar backdrop was divided into 12 equal Constellations (identified as the Zodiac wheel), each Zodiac Sign was 30° apart. The Sun spent approximately 2,160 (an “AGE”) in each Zodiac and took approximately 25,000 years to complete the Stellar Cycle, known as the “Asiatic Calendar” (Asia-“Land upon which the Sun first rose. Land of the Rising Sun”.). This Clock became the origin of calculating the transitory changes that make up Ages, Years, Months, Weeks, Days, Hours, Minutes and Seconds.

The birth of the Original Steller Calendar and the use of Alpha-Numeric Glyphs became the rudimentary elements of Fathering/Mothering Civilization, which evolved the Culture of the Original People. Through this Culture, Spirituality, the first writing system, language, agriculture, science, family dynamics and other aspects of people activity was born. Since I, Allah the Original Man thought in “Wholisitic” terms, there was no difference in Spirituality, Family, Agriculture, Science or etc.. . Through my Self Realization, all was one, all was the Universal Mind (me). During this time I established the first Dynastic Periods of the Original Man’s Nile Valley Civilizations, change and evolution already began to occur. Dominant/Recessive Gene combinations (varying the degree of “Melanin”) began to manifest the diversity of the Human Family from the Original Black Man. Continental Drift and the prior separation of “Pangea” into the North, East, South & West Asian quadrants of Planet Earth established extreme geographic/weather changes, and the exploration/settling in the basic four quadrants of the Planet Earth by the Original People created Physiological/Axiological changes based upon environmental adaptation. In time, I, the Original Man manifested the youngest of the human family, the Caucasian (Cauc-Asian), who represents the Original Man’s “Polar Opposite”; my Dichotomous Self.

Since all things have a reason to exist, all things were established according to a naturally designated “Purpose” (LAW). Any “Purpose” (LAW) has “INTELLIGENCE” at it’s root and this Intangible Intelligence is the Universal Mind known as Allah (Al-lah-The LAW). The reason or “Purpose” for man to exist was to house this Intangible Intelligence and to be the living expression of the Universal Mind (which is Allah). The Black man’s Nature, Functioning Role & Responsibility is Godhood. He is Allah (Al-lah-The LAW) in the flesh! The perversion or deviation of this “Purpose” (LAW) is defined as Devil (The Adversary). Scriptures (Medu-Neter , Bible, Koran, or etc..) are “Psycho-Dramatic” Symbolic Imagery. These “writings” are used to illustrate the functioning LAWS of the Universal Mind (Allah) as it is chronologically expressed through our 25,000 year Cycle (Asiatic Calendar). Religious People follow & interpret these Scriptures “Exoterically” while Spiritual People become them from an “Esoteric” perspective! The belief that something exists outside of self is an illusion. All that we see is essentially within and all that is within is manifested outside of us. Triple Stages of Darkness essentially represents:

Stage 1 = Womb of NothingnessStage 2 = Darkness, The Absence of LightStage 3 = Ignorance

Self Creation consists of being manifested through these Triple aspects of Darkness. Darkness of Original Nothingness, Physical Darkness of Space, and Mental Darkness of Self Realization. From Mind to Man, Thought to Form, Beingness to Being. I also need to mention that when I speak of “Man” I am specifically dealing with the Male gender or Yang Energy. Woman or Womb-man represents the form of Universal duality, the feminine balance who functionally exists as the minds womb through which self-perpetuation manifests, on all levels of creation, beginning with the Dark Womb of un-manifest Nothingness. This is one reason that a Woman represents “Equality”. Equal meaning “same”, Quality meaning “nature”. Woman being the same nature (Universal Mind) as the Original Man yet formed to exist as a different functioning conduit to express this Universal Mind. Man being the singular and Woman being the plural. It’s as simple as 1 and 2 or the relationship of Sun and Earth in the Universe. The Sun cannot be the Earth nor can the Earth be the Sun. They have two distinct compositions, functions and laws that determine who and what they are and will always be, naturally. So in other words, the Original “Man” is Allah and the Original Woman is the Womb (Temple or Tomb!) of Allah. The idea of a “Goddess” is functionally not a right and exact nor is it mathematically sound. The term “Neter” in Ancient Kemet means singular/plural masculine/feminine “Forces of Nature” not Gods and Goddesses. To be continued.. . P.E.A.C.E.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

"In the Name of ALLAH, literally!!"
Name Change Politics
(-How to change ya' NAME without a Lawyer-)

Peace Family, once again I'm back with something very interesting for you to do the Knowledge to. Gotta put a plug out there for the Movie I recently did the Knowledge to called "Pressure Point". This 1962 movie is set in the early 1940's when World War was jumping off and it star's (Sir) Sidney Poitier, who plays the role of a Prison Psychiatrist. It center's around his experience with his most difficult Patient -Strait up White Supremist- and his quest to treat him! The bulk of the movie chronicles his Psychoanalysis of this Patient and it's deep because it gives you a very good perspective of a collective psyche of Colored People (White People), that's shared throughout the globe. For those of you who have read J.A. Rodgers book "From Superman to Man", this movie is ideologically similar in it's conceptual expression of "but do not try to learn who is causing all this to happen by letting the 5% teach them, they believe in the 10% on face value." (9th Degree/1-40). Cee, when you think about old movies, Alfred Hitchcock is one of those people that really modernized film in regards to editing techniques/camera shots and basic special effects. Prior to this and even during his time, movies didn't have all the glitter and shit to sell a story, the foundation was always "The Dialogue"! Good movies meant good lines just like good songs meant good music and good lyrics. Back in the Black/White Movie Era you cee some of the best dialogue you've ever heard! Not to dismiss some of the newer movies, I'm just saying that if you really want to watch and hear some shit, go back and do the knowledge on some of the older movies. I'd say anything between the 1930's-1980's is a pretty good range. Also, check out some of "The Duke's" (John Wayne) Kick-ass Western Movies. In particular check out "Big Jake", "Rio Grande" and "She Wore a Yellow Ribbon". There's many other movies "that are not mentioned in this lesson", but take my advice and check out some Ole' Fashioned B/W Movies.

Now, my subject for today.. . I wanted to build about the idea of the "Legal Name Change". First of all, I so-called legally (in accordance with the Civil Laws and Statues of New York State) changed my name to "Saladin Quanaah' Allah" on April 23rd, 1999. For those who don't know what "Quanaah'" is it's a Quahadi (Comanche) name of the last Quahadi Chief named Quanah Parker. As you can cee, I added another letter "a" to it, b.u.t. anyway it means "Fragrant or sweet smelling". I never get too much into this, b.u.t. it's an add on to my Major Science; Shamanism. So for all of you shit starters, yeah there's a "Q" in my name! For all you Supreme Math fanatics Quanaah' means; Queen's Universe is Allah's Nation, Allah is He to Her. Oh yeah, it also born's (adds up to) Born which is "I", Islam, I Sincerely Love Allah's Mathematics and I Self Lord And Master, there, you satisfied?! For those of you who don't understand why I said that, it's because some of these Chauvinistic Ass-holes (so-called Gods) are under the illusion that if you are a male you cannot have the letter "Q" anywhere in your name because it represents "Queen" in our Supreme Mathematics! It never occurs to them that certain letters (and numbers!) are inherently feminine, others masculine and some neutral. Dumb muthafuckas!

Anyway, like I said in a previous Article, I Knowledged 120 in 1995. This was a complete renewal of my mind and from that point forward it put me in a position where I had to deal with the complications of having a "Double Consciousness" (as coined by Carter G. Woodson), something I was never comfortable with! I've had arguments with muthafucka's, debates and heard every excuse under the Sun why brothers still don't mind being called "Billy" and sisters "Mary Ann" when they supposively have Knowledge of Self! I never felt that level of comfort with being called and viewed as a Caterpillar once I undoubtedly evolved into a beautiful Butterfly! Nigga's be trying to rationalize the shit saying "Yo' God that's my Honorable Name", like “that” really changes what Steven Harold Wagstaff means in the Grand Scheme of things! I don’t know about ya’ll b.u.t. it seems contradictive to me to cee Supreme Born Divine building his ass off in Cipher one minute and the next minute being called Freddy Joe Brown by his white counterparts! It’s like, when I chose my Attribute I took that to heart, for real for real. To me it wasn’t no Street Name or fuckin’ AKA, it was MY NAME and I didn’t want to be called anything but that! In time I did begin to realize why some people do that! Like some Bobby Digital shit, they use these split personalities to live out a duel lifestyle. One that they rationalize as governed by Righteousness and the other that is strait 85! At work or most of the time people "know" them as Becky or Steven but they flaunt around at NGE functions and parliments as Queen Natural Divine Earth and God Shamiek Born Master Allah! It's easy to identify muthafucka's on that type of shit because they are usually Nationalistically Extreme! Extreme to a point where you can smell their sense of guilt, inadequacy and overcompensation from being saturated in a Build Power (85%) role all week!! Nigga’s like this will try to build until you fall the fuck out or bomb you about everything from your ear piercing to the fact that you didn’t know The Father had a mole on his ass! Like I said, you can tell Nigga’s that suffer from the daily Complications of thinking they are one thing and willingly answering to another thing every day of your life. It’s a lot of inner turmoil going on and they often take out their frustrations in unhealthy ways on those who accept them as they want to be ceen! Before I erupted, I resolved this issue and legally changed my name!

I need to mention that our 9th Degree in the 1-40’s talks about the 85% in saying that they “Do not want to learn who is causing all this to happen by letting the 5% teach them. THEY BELIEVE IN THE 10% ON FACE VALUE.” Through my experiences I realized that the idea of “believing in the 10% on face value” was the psychological foundation of 85% of the people, and this defined their Worldview! In practical terms, when it comes to your name, you go through Psychological Warfare with these muthafuckas, this is, if you plan on literally defending your name! Since they “believe in the 10% on face value”, this means that regardless what you call yourself, if it ain’t on your Lease, Utility Bills, Paycheck, SS Card or License that ain’t your name! They have a legal right and obligation to call your ass “Toby” if that’s what it is, on paper. You can get mad, debate, or whup a muthafucka’s ass for so-called disrespecting you b.u.t. according to the laws of the land, “Ya’ name is Toby boy”! I lived over four years as Clark Kent amongst Family, some Friends and Associates and that shit was draining my lifeforce! Sure I would build with my Inner Circle b.u.t. that was it. I felt like I was lying to myself and “Settling the Devil on the Best Part” (1/1-14). After four years of wearing that bullshit ass Build Power Costume I took it upon myself to take the steps to legally change my name.

Now the first thing I did was consult with a local Liar I mean “Lawyer”. He quoted me at $700 to do it for me so I told him thank you for the information, hung up the phone and walked strait to the library to start doing research on getting it done myself. The first thing I found that each State has it’s own Civil Laws and State Statues in regards to “NAME CHANGE” Law. Since I live in New York State, I did the Knowledge on ours. For those who are interested in changing your name in other states I recommend that you go to your Local Public Library Reference Section and check out your Civil Law’s & Statues for “NAME CHANGE” Law. Anyway, what I discovered is under "Section 60 Article 6 of the Civil Rights Law of New York State Consolidated Laws and Statues" there is a THE COMMON-LAW NAME CHANGE METHOD (Paragraph 4) that is recognized. What this means is that according to COMMON-LAW Usage, a person doesn’t need to go through Legal Court Proceedings in order to change their name. Basically, as long as you have been consistently using this name over a considerable period of time, then that’s your name! Even though this is New York State Law, most people do not know this, therefore they often believe in the Court Method “on face value”. The next issue the presents a problem is acquiring documentation in the name you are using! When I say using, I mean using! You can’t be talking about your name is Scientific Allah or Queen Divine and your signing your Signature every other day with your “birth name” or letting people slide (even family) with calling you Brian or Lisa! You gotta be consistent! If you really want to come in the name literally then there’s no turning back and your old name gotta be buried there.

I had to go through quite a bit of educating people before I was able to finally born my name. Like I said, people weren’t familiar with the process so I had to bring copies of Section 60 Article 6 of the Civil Rights Law of New York State Consolidated Laws and Statues to Show and Prove what I was doing. DON’T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT IT!!! Anyway, the process I used took me a few months to complete and cost me a measly $10.00, literally! I’ve done the Knowledge since then and there are a few steps that don’t need to be taken anymore so here’s basically what you need to do. Remember, these steps are in regards to New York State and I’m sure that they are applicable in other States in they have a COMMON-LAW USAGE aspect of their “NAME CHANGE” Law. Well here’s the basic steps. If you have any questions after this, you can email me and I’ll give you more clarity;

1. Get a DECLARATION OF LEGAL NAME CHANGE Document that I created. If you need a copy please email me and I’ll send it to you. This form is what it is! It declares your legal right to change your name under THE COMMON-LAW USAGE METHOD, cites the Civil Laws and Statues that uphold it and explains that you are of sufficient age, and you aren’t changing your name to defraud, misrepresent, affect, defeat or destroy any past obligations, rights of property, rights of others or actions which exist in your birth name.

2. Take this Document along with current I.D. to a Bank to have it NOTORIZED by a Public Notary which authenticates it as a Legal Document. Keep the Original for your own records and make a few copies. A cover letter and a Copy should be filed with the County Recorder to make it an OFFICIAL PUBLIC RECORD. Be sure to request that the County Recorder send you a Confirmation Response in writing that ensures that they have received your correspondence. From this day forward, you must “legally” use your name. The date on your NOTORIZED STATEMENT will be your officially Born Day!!!

3. Go to a Local Store and buy a Prepaid Credit Card. They are cards that you re-load with money. When you call to activate your card GIVE THEM YOUR NAME. In a week or so they will send you mail and a card in your NAME. If your name is Sincere God Allah, then that’s what will be on the card. They also offer you a Direct Deposit Slip so you may want to consider getting your paycheck (or part of it) directly deposited onto your card. This action begins the creation of the proper paper trail you’ll need to further validate your name. It’s important to mention that you use your card as much as possible. Use it “systematically” to create Mail, for Utility Bills, Purchases and etc.. , anything to generate the documentation that’s Show’s and Proves that you have been using this Name. Keep a file of all of these Transactions!

4. Contact any agencies that have records in your old name via phone and/or letter with a copy of your LEGAL NAME CHANGE DECLARATION and Confirmation Response from the County Recorder and forward it to them so that they can update your records to reflect your NAME. Debt Collectors would love to do this, trust me! Also begin to go to any local stores and sign up for or update any Member/Discount Cards that will bear your name. Remember that you may have to “educate” people about the process especially if they talking about “they need picture I.D.”! Be sure you have your Documentation (NAME CHANGE DOCUMENT, Copy of the Civil Laws and Statues, Letter from the County Recorder, and any other documentation you have generated from using your Re-load Debit Card)

5. Go to the Local SOCIAL SECURITY OFFICE with your Documentation (see above), turn in your old SS Card and request a New One that bears your NAME. All you need is documentation in your NAME which you have generated through systematically using your Re-Load Debit Card. Again, you may run up against ignorance, so you might have to speak to a person a Supervisor or Manager, b.u.t. you shouldn’t have any problems. The key is to have as much available paperwork in your new name as possible. SOCIAL SECURITY OFFICE will take you old card, give you a form which states that you filed for a new one and in a week or so you’ll receive your new one in the mail.

6. In order to get a NYS Driver’s License/I.D. you need “7 Points” of Identification. At the DMV you can ask for a sheet that tells you all forms of acceptable documentation. Your Social Security Card is worth 2 points so now all you need is 5 more. This can be your Debit Card, and other minor forms of identification that you probubly already have up until this point because you’ve been systematically using your Debit Card right? Right! Again, you may run into the same ignorance so make sure you got your Artillery of Documentation (including your SS Card) to educate them. If you already got a NYS Driver’s License/I.D your simply requesting to have that information “updated” (Not “changed”, people are sometimes frightened by that word!). If it’s all good at this point, smile for the muthafuckin’ camera and you’ll be receiving your NEW NYS Driver’s License/I.D. in the mail.

7. Take out some add space in your Local Newspaper where they print Birthday/Engagement and other information and inform the general public that you have changed your name. You can even do it like it’s your “Born Day” or something! By publishing this information, it further reinforces the fact that you are no longer to be legally called “Jeff Blockovich” b.u.t. Knowledge G. (God) Allah.

Some of these steps may go smoother than others. Some your gonna have to work through because people are generally ignorant to the fact that you have the legal right to bypass Court Proceedings and change your name at will through COMMON-LAW USAGE! Since I have done this myself I have been instrumental in helping others take the same steps to reclaim their name, for real for real! That’s why I put this information out there like that. Sometimes I come in tune with people that don’t want to call me “Allah” and I can see it all over their black or white faces! But guess what?! They gotta grit they muthafucken’ teeth and call me by my NAME or don’t call me at all! Why? Because “they believe in things on face value” and if they do call me out of my NAME that’s grounds for Harassment, Defamation of Character and other legal issues that they probably don’t want! You feel me?

When dealing in a Society of people who have suffered from a Mental Death, most of our battles are waged on a Psychological Front! This is a battle that we must win to ensure that we properly and unrestrictedly represent who we are, for ourselves and our future; our children. What commitment do we expect our children to have to this God-Centered Culture if they cee us continually compromise what we call ourselves to accommodate what someone “wants” to call us? How can we teach them that we gave them a name that was founded in Peace and built first by us if they cee us answering to a name that divides us and makes them think that "we" are all on some different shit?! (7/1-14). Yeah I am encouraging those of you who haven't taken the step of changing your name literally (for "various" reasons) to really consider it. Fuck what other's think because you have to live with yourself and if your comfortable rationalizing why you still want to hold on to a name that doesn't respond to your present mental state then be satisified with it and disregard everything I'm saying. More than being a shallow EGO gratification, legally changing your name psychologcially/socially and economically involves other's in willingly reinforcing our God-Centered Cultural Identity and our own personal destiny! It's a Political Tool that can never be minimized or disregarded any longer. This is one of the most powerful teaching mechanisms you can ever have, especially dealing with those who "do not want to learn who is causing all this to happen by letting the 5% teach them." THEY BELIEVE IN THE 10% ON FACE VALUE!”. So the next time you feel your pulse jump when someone plays them mind games and deliberately calls you “Rob”, or you feel anger when ya’ family or girl calls you “Samantha” then do something about it. It don’t have to be that way and you don't have to settle for that, change ya’ muthafucken’ name!!! PEACE

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

"Whatever Nigga', you ain't no muthafuckin' Super-Man!"
-The Inner Dialogue of Someone's Wiz-
TGBT Disorder

Peace Fam. Yeah I know ya’ll wondering what did I come up with now! I was doing the Knowledge to this old Movie that Woody Allen Stars in/Directs called “Annie Hall”. If you haven’t seen it, take the time to get it, there’s a lot of Jewels in it! Anyway, at the end of the movie Woody Allen tells a joke that goes like this; “A guy goes to a Psychiatrist and tells him that his brother believes that he’s a Chicken. The Psychiatrist ask’s him, ‘Why don’t you turn him in?’ and the guy responds, “Because I need the eggs!”. Woody Allen goes on to articulate that we oftentimes find ourselves committed to relationships that are just like that! Relationships that become like “Dead Sharks” in the water, ceasing to continuously move forward, yet our sense of dependency keeps us there. He finishes by saying that, many of us simply “need the eggs”! This joke is the foundation of today’s Article, TGBT Disorder (Too Good to Be True Disorder).

One of the great benefits of sincerely living this God-Centered Culture is the fact that you set higher expectations for yourself and cease to settle for doing things half-assed. At least that’s how I am and I’ve met other’s who can attest to the same attitude. Knowledge of Self makes you approach making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich without bullshitting! I don’t care if it’s a sink full of dishes, you wash every one of them muthafucka’s 100%. If you really real with this Culture like that, Your Conscience will never let you slack because of the Impeccable Standards you adhere to. For Women, that’s the beauty and benefit of having a Man who lives by this Core Value System, he’s not thinking, saying or doing shit for a REWARD or PENALTY, he’s doing what's Right and all within his Power for Righteousness sake, that’s all!

Now, because of this inherent attitude, true God’s often come across as Too Good to Be True to some Women that they meet! Women often find it hard to believe that she can’t “Pussynotize” (Pussy + Hypnotize = Pussynotize) him. It’s also difficult to accept that he loves & educates his children. One of the hardest things to accept is that he’s completely about his business. These among other things is just hard to believe because it contrasts the sociopathological disorders we cee Original Men consciously/unconsciously displaying! I unapologetically speak for many God’s when I say that we often find ourselves dealing with Women who systematically try to find chinks in our armor. Chinks that gotta be there! Why? Because this is just Too Good to Be True. I consider this a functional Disorder because it’s a conglomerated synthesis of these particular symptoms; Compulsive Suspiciousness, Lack of Trust, Cunningness/Guile used to acquire/hide things (animate/inanimate), “Do Me” approach towards her own finances, “These are my kids” attitude towards combined families, Possessiveness, deliberately making Drama (conflict), and trying to control the man through verbal/nonverbal demands. Of course there are other symptoms “not mentioned in this lesson”, I just named a few that tend to serve as primary rules that regulate behavior.

When your dealing with a Women (or Man!) who suffers from TGBT Syndrome, you find yourself always in Emotional Debt. Always spending your intellectual currency paying for (explaining/justifying) emotional expenditures. While making ends meet, you never seem to get a chance to invest in anything current or in the future because some shit is always coming up! People suffering from TGBT Syndrome also have a built in Self Destruct Mechanism. They fear Success more than Failure so they use psychological sabotage tactics to make themselves fail. To these people they would rather deal with rats & roaches then shoulder the responsibility of dusting the woodwork of a Mansion. It’s sick but truer than a muthafucka’! They purposely use drama to make conflict so that repulsion (repelling) is grafted from an Original state of Peace! In other words, they cause fuckin trouble using often innocuous methods. When given the chance to do better, they’ll give you every excuse in the book why they can’t, including “I tried”! Sometimes they simply feel unworthy of having you so they go through extreme ways to show you just how much “you don’t want them”! If they do stick their foot in to test the water -oftentimes for years- your entire relationship will consist of a Partner who compulsively looks for erroneous evidence to support a conviction they handed to you before ya’ll even met! Guilty without a chance to show and Prove your innocence. TGBT Syndrome causes people to shroud themselves in Defense Mechanisms at time when they least need them. They develop a Conspiracy Theorist attitude about everything, except themselves! It’s a very vicious cycle that I’ve seen last for a lifetime, all because a person simply looks as you as Too Good to Be True.

Check the prognosis. First of all, our 9th Degree in the 1-40’s tells us that “The 85% Knows that it rain’s, hails, snows and also hears thunder above their heads BUT DO NOT TRY TO LEARN who is causing all this to happen BY LETTING THE FIVE PERCENT TEACH THEM. THEY BELIEVE IN THE TEN PERCENT ON FACE VALUE”. The first thing you must realize is that this “Belief in a Mystery God” Mentality is not based upon blind ignorance, ya Partner “Knows that it rain’s, hails, snows and also hears thunder above their heads”! This tells you that they are quite aware of the “many layers of currents that distill in the form”; intangible deeds that translate into sensory perceptive evidence of who you are! These people see, touch, taste, smell and hear what the fuck you do! The problem is, “They do not try to learn”! Why? It ain’t because they simply lack the interest, they just don’t want the responsibility. By learning the “cause” of something (especially if it’s negative) you are automatically indebted to reconcile it’s “effect(s)” in some way. When people come across like they don’t want to “let you teach them”, don’t! Don’t kill yourself trying to raise the dead, they would rather “believe shit on face value”. It’s easy, efficient and outright entertaining for them to deal with things that way. Entertaining because when you simply believe, “It’s a world of Pure Imagination” as my man Willy Wonka put it. If a believe that I am not writing this Article right now it ain’t shit you can do to make me bear witness that I am. In the world of belief, Actual Facts, Universal Laws and often Ass Whuppin’s do not apply!

Now I’m sure your wondering how you deal with this frustrating situation huh’? It’s simpler than you think. As I said, since everything you do is somehow a fluke, good luck or the just the fact that you ain’t get caught yet, this person is really on some “Mystery God” is causing all this to happen shit! What it comes down to is that their dealing with a lot of Ghosts! Restless Ghosts of their past that still haunt them. Unbeknownst to you, you tried try to build a home and live a respectful life which turned out to be an Amityville Horror House with no respect for the true and living. Sometimes a person like this may have a good heart but they just carry out post-traumatic responses rooted in a negative past. There is chance “because the lost-found was once mentally dead and many of them recovered from it, but they were not dead physically, only mentally” (13/1-40). So as long as they are physically here, you got an opportunity for recovery. It will be ruff, yet there is a chance so if you want to hang in there you must approach the relationship with the attitude that there’s a slim chance for recovery and it may take years. To get out of this type of situation respectfully bow out. If you don’t leave on your own good terms you run the risk of getting “further” entangled in a karmic web of resentment, spite, hate and a host of other nasty little poisonous spiders.

Now the other approach I’d recommend is strait exile or taken off the Planet because this person is more of a problem then anything else. If your being Righteous and the muthafucka’ is systematically trying to prove you can’t be, fuck them! You don’t need that. Original Women have a bad habit of “testing” the Original Man. Some Women would ignorantly say, “You gotta test him to cee if he’s a said person of that ability”! Here’s ya error bitch, Life itself is a problem solving reality. We wake up in the morning and naturally face problems, whether it’s what will I wear, if I should eat alittle something, which way should I drive to work and etc.. . What does it say about a person who sits there and concocts tests to go along with the natural problems we already gotta deal with in life? That’s some Devilishment! If you want to cee if a Man (or Woman!) is a said person of that ability just spend time with them and do the knowledge on how they handle the natural problems that come along with life. The Father didn’t include the Problem Book with our 120 because he said we already have problems, it makes damn good sense! We know from our 10/1-14 that this person “Is 100% weak and wicked and will not keep and obey the laws”, and also in our 34/1-40 that “No all the Prophets have tried to reform him (or her) Devil and were unable so they have agreed that it cannot be done unless he (or she) is grafted back into the Original Man (or Woman) which takes 600 years, so instead of losing time we have decided to take him (or her) off our Planet, who only number 1 to every 11 Original Men (or Women)”. In a nutshell, this tells you clearly how you can handle this problem! It may seem harsh yet our 10/1-14 tells us further, “also if allowed to live they will just sting someone else”. Through experience I learned that “you can’t build prison house’s for these people” (so-called “Correctional” Facilities) in order to be successful in your undertakings. You got to have a zero tolerance, capital punishment mentality for everyone who falls a victim to the law because you already deal with yourself like that.

To conclude today’s Article I wanted to say Peace to those people (Black Men in particular) who strive to live impeccably! Don’t allow another person’s doubt (especially your so-called Partner) be a pin in your head (leadership!). We are dealing with the same sickness that many of us recovered from so be patient enough to be empathetic and also stern enough to use the sword of justice when needed. Sometimes it’s a very subtle insight that allows you to discern which approach/attitude to take in order to resolve your situation. All in all, it is ultimately our God-Centeredness that will determine our destiny, with or without those who bear witness to the greatness in “themselves”, period! Unless of course, “you need the eggs”!