The 30th Annual Family Day in Power Hill (Philadelphia)

I-Freedom Born, Divine Universal, C'BS ALife, Lord Life Justice, Unikue Thorough and Justice Understanding

The Fossil Phrase Phenomenon

    The idea of "Fossil Phrases" came to me one day when I was commenting on one of FB Friends Status. She mentioned the phrase "Old Heads" and it struck a chord because I'm not used to hearing some of the younger generation using phrases like that. Not to say I'm an "Old Head", b.u.t. many of the younger generation I directly or indirectly come in contact with are more prone to use phrases like "I ain't even trying to hear that" and "I ain't feelin' that" to describe their relationship with the older generation; which are nothing more than 'mute buttons' for the advice an "Old Head" or anyone is striving to share with them. Heck, there are many People my 'physical degree' (age) and older following suit! The fact that this young woman even used this phrase says volumes about her Principles, Values and Family Dynamics as a whole... It was refreshing. Refreshing enough to write a whole Article about the fossilization of phrases.

    When I was coming of age there were various different phrases, lingo, proverbs we used to describe and define where we are at and how we were livin'. Some of these phrases, like "That's cold blooded!" were recognized nationally while there were other cryptic phrases like, "I'm going to the Office", that were locally understood amongst my peers. Regardless if these phrases were national, regional or local they all served the same purpose; Psychologically and Socioeconomically orientating us. For example, "I can't call it" was never a response me and my companions used when someone asked us, "What's going on?" We had an answer, even if it was negative, we at least knew what to call it. A couple generations before me, because of the Socioeconomic Climate, the answer to "What's going on?" would have been a variation of "Revolution". I think that as long as we're continuing to at least ask eachother, "What's going on?" there's always going to be an opportunity to consider where we are at, how we are livin' AND what is actually going on.

    Anytime a People elevated their condition, whether from a primative state to a level of civilization or from a menial position to that of entreprenuer, they had to undergoe a process to reorientate themselves Psychologically and Socioeconomically. Within this reorientation process came a change in the way they communicate; how they define, describe themselves and also process data communicated to them from the World. In otherwords, elevation was made possible on one condition, that a person grow! In the Bible it talks about being as a child and speaking as a child and when we grew to become a Man (or Woman) we put childish things away. Well our commitment towards growth & development is always apparent in the what/how we communicate, whether that's through our words or ways. It is my position that the fossilization of certain phrases that convyed important Principles, Values and reinforced positive Family Dynamics for us as a People is one of the reasons why many of our present generation "can't call it"...

    One of the most interesting things about The Nation of Gods and Earths (Five Percenters) is that since our inception we've taken a direct approach towards reorientating People, particularly the youth, via a Cultural Worldview that codified a unique language, phrases, lingo and proverbal wisdom to transit/receive Principles, Values and reinforce positive Family Dynamics that elevate our condition. We, like many of our Ancestors at various times and in various different geographic locations, recognized a need for People to grow & development and take responsiblity for aiding others in their growth & development. And for these relationships to be resourceful, sustainable, and perpetuated, there had to be a language to hold these bonds together. So within our language we don't say, "What's up?" to one another. We simply say "Peace". It's the way we greet eachother and the way we depart. A common phrase we also use is, "What's the science?" This basically means, "What are you aware of, what do you know or what are you studying/learning about life right now?" This way of communicating with eachother demands not only a level of responsibility/accountability for what we're doing in our lives and for eachother b.u.t. it also communicates that our Worldview is rooted in reinforcing critical analytical thinking skills. If a God/Earth were to ask another God/Earth "What's the science?" and they replied, "Nothing" or didn't have a legitimate explanation for what they're doing in their life that's the first sign that they're "stagnating" <----- as we call it, which means "they're dull, inactive and not growing"; the complete opposite of what our way of life is based upon. Although the concepts we hold fast to and language we use to convey/reinforce them about how we should treat one another, our relationship to nature, dietary/healthcare choices and etc.. is Ancient (Classical), we express many of these concepts in a Contemporary context. For example, the Ancient proverbial wisdom, "If you are a person who judges, listen carefully to the speech of one who pleads." would be communicated in our language as, "When you do the knowledge to the cipher that's Just I cee equality." So in comparison to the Ancient proverbial wisdom we actually take it a step further by informing someone that “getting to know a person, place or thing is the basis for us being able to treat that person, place or thing fairly". Of course this only explains what that means on the surface and there are many deeper meanings to the phrase, "When you do the knowledge to the cipher that's Just I cee equality." If I translated that phrase Numerically (in a Mathematical Equation) all I simply said was, “1 + 0 = 10”. Alphabetically? Justice. It’s pretty sophisticated and isn’t a language and way of living a person can thoroughly grasp by remote viewing it. In my Articles, Videos and Books I strive to translate our Cultural concepts and communicate them in the everyday language of the layperson. Some things I can, many things I can’t; because a person would have to live this Culture, oftentimes for a substantial number of years, before they’re able to understand many things.

    Over the years People have always been intrigued, interested and attracted to the sophisticated way we (Gods/Earths) communicate with one another and how we describe/define the World. What many fail to realize, even those who have personally studied our Culture through an Enlightener, is that the language, phrases, lingo and proverbal wisdom we use aren’t “Fossil Phrases”. They’re not out of date, antiquated nor do they ‘belong’ to the past. I say this because even within our Culture there are certain phrases, lingo and proverbal wisdom that was shared by our “Old Heads” that some of the present date Gods/Earths don’t use anymore. For example, the phrase, “Science it up!” which was commonly used in the 1970’s is rarely used today. With the present day backdrop of Pseudoscience, Ghetto Scholarship and Illuminatiology paraded around on the Internet and through the Media, the phrase “Science it up!” would do alot to help our present generation to stay rooted in and reinforce their critical analytical thinking skills. The fossilization of valuable phrases such as this can only mean one of two things A.) “I can’t call it.” or B.) The younger generation must create Contemporary phrases that reflect Ancient concepts. Regardless if it’s A. or B. both of them point to our responsibility/accountability as Adults to assist them in the process. Even if that means refusing to respond to them in a language that promotes stagnation b.u.t. being wise enough to offer them a fly alternative. I mention that because I know/talk to alot of Adults who cringe and complain when they hear the youth saying ‘Nigga” or other colorful words/phrases yet they don’t even offer them an alternative attractive enough to make then even consider changing their language. This is why many of the youth “aren’t even trying” to hear that...

    In the Nation of Gods and Earths we have a commone phrase that says, “We preserve the Best Part and don’t care about the Poor Part.” When it comes to those various different phrases, lingo and proverbial wisdom that’s a fundamental part of communicating our Principles, Values and reinforcing positive Family Dynamics, it’s important to preserve them. They are the Best Part! It is likewise important to not show interest or desire in perpetuating those things that stagnate us. That is the Poor Part and it only keeps us in a state of moral, intellectual and physiological poverty. There are many phrases that are fossils and should remain as such yet there are many others that should have never been treated like a fad. To better distinguish the Best from the Poor part start consulting with Old Heads. Ask them about phrases we used and what they meant they’ll ‘make knowledge born’ (‘make knowledge born’ is a phrase that basically means “to make it known so a person will be equipped with the proper information to change their situation"). Regardless if they know the difference themselves, they’ll at least be able to give you information so you can do further research and distinguish it for yourself.

Peace,
Saladin

The Seen and Unseen

Peace Family!

   I come in the name of Allah as the Universal One, Lord Life Justice Shabazz. We have had Knowledge of Self for Understanding Equality years. My persons Enlighteners were Ahad Knowledge Born Metu Tegghet Allah with I Freedom Born Allah (who represents a large way in which I carry this awareness). I was made aware because we are a said person of that ability and resurrected from a state of ignorance and unawareness. I taught one who at one point claimed the Blackman is God and that God is the living manifestation of Allah's full will on Earth in human form. During this time of his certainty he taught Saladin Quanaah Allah -whom in my view had to "separate the wheat from the chaff" in order to get this right. Quite a few years have passed since this Solar transmission had made it's way down the line, like the sun transmits light transmissions to reach the earth traveling at that terrific speed of 186,000 miles per second or the instructional code (DNA) being re-packaged different sperm cells to continue the code of the family line. Mine has seen some changes, though forever (since Allah and the Will is eternal)-- not always for better; yet like the sperm which tail propels it, the light wave continues until it reaches the earth in 8.33 minutes some 93,000,000 miles away. This is to say that this idea is determined; nor more or no less determined than the birth of the Big Head Scientist or God making Devil (21-30/1-40). As all Allah's plans are such, but man (and woman) can be other than Self and concoct ideas that defy Allah's will.
   As many of you know, Knowledge is the Foundation and this is symbolic to the Sun, which formed its way through triple stage darkness to become the light; which is as Allah made Himself known as a living God by metamorphoses through man. We Gods within NGE proclaim that Knowledge, the Sun, Supreme Consciousness, and Allah is one and the same. Allah is omniscient (all knowing), omnipotent (all powerful), and omnipresent (all presence or present everywhere). Amongst the major religions, there is no argument concerning this. There is no mediator, minister, or middle man in this, for the Self known as the Father-- completed the promise to return on His eighty seventh earth-day (incarnate day for Allah has no birth record 9/1-10).
   The Father left the temple when His purpose became clear. Something about the ideas present in the NOI at the time, made it necessary to leave. Like all determine ideas, they are like plan-ets, something grown or made from the beginning; like Holy is something that has not been mixed diluted or tampered with in any form (9/1-14). Like a seed that is sprouting at the roots and searching for light (or the sperm during its gestation period), I didn't understand why the First Born with this was so emphatically tenuous with their relationship with the Nation Of Islam. After a few years of "butting heads" with "registered" Muslims, I began to take on a posture that was similar to our First Born, but without the full understanding or same position but I was gaining this awareness. As they say, "Seek and ye shall find." Some Understanding Equality years later, "the worms have hatched out" (the decaying issue has now been consumed). My Self, in the form of the First Born in the Five Percent Nation (The NGE), was during the Chronicles of The Honorable Elijah Muhammad, then Malcolm X and the Nation of Islam under Master Fard's teachings (given by Alfonso Muhammad-- his father). Minister and National Representative for the NOI, then Malcolm X, was the one who requested that the Father be expelled from the NOI for teaching "His Self-styled Wisdom" (1962). Master Fard and the Honorable Elijah Muhammad's teachings, along with the Bible and the Koran (Qu' ran) formed the basis of what the First Resurrected of the Nation of Islam taught, which was distinctly different than any other form of Muslim teachings (besides a similarity to Sufism). The First Born wanted to make sure that no one mistook our ideas as being the same. Allah had returned on His eighty-seventh earth day in the form of Lieutenant Abdullah changed his name to Allah, informed The Honorable Elijah Muhammad of his purpose, left Temple #7 and formed the Five Percent Nation or NGE (1964).
   The Nation of Islam has no birth record, yet THERE IS a birth record for the current group claiming this title under Minister Louis Farrakhan. It happened when his person was near death in the hospital. He became befriended by his Caucasian well-wishers and after making the 360 degrees of perfected knowledge into a fossil, headed in a direction different than Master Fard and Elijah Muhammad. The Minister like all ministers of his day had to claim that he was a minister for the teachings of the Honorable Elijah Muhammad. In those days, they all said that Allah came in the persons of Master Fard Muhammad. My Enlightener I Freedom Born were around during that time in our chronology and have tapes and other paraphernalia to this effect. I gather Farrakhan no longer approaches his speeches the same way.
   Now some Understanding Equality years later, some Muslims of the so-called Nation of Islam, under Minister Farrakhan instead of the Honorable Elijah Muhammad, wants to stake claim for our prosperity as NGE. What arrogance! First of all, you who are under the teachings of Minister Farrakhan, ARE NOT directly advocating the teachings of the Honorable Elijah Muhammad-- teaching given by Allah in the persons of Master Fard Muhammad. Therefore you who do such things are not our kin. Master Fard did not teach Dianetics or Christian Science! That's what being a follower will do to you... Get you to go against better judgment! How can the Messenger be right and exact one minute and tucked away the next, because of the times? What are you doing? Back peddling? If you know and truly believed something, how could a leader which came afterwards change your heart-- without an ounce of protest? You who do this claim that you are Nation Of Islam but you cannot claim the same foundation as Silas Muhammad or any of the first resurrection because you don't maintain the same heritage. This Nation is strictly under Farrakhan's ideology: The same principle Malcolm wanted the Father expelled for (his Self-Styled Wisdom), and part of what Malcolm himself was labeled a traitor for by Louis Farrakhan and others (ministers that is). We do not have any of the same foundational teachings as the basis of our curriculum; which means the group of related courses or fields of study are not even similar. We bear more in common with the real Nation Of Islam or First Resurrection than with you. Muslims (Believers) under Minister Farrakhan have buried that light long ago. This also means our ideology is not the same. Ideology is a body of ideas reflecting the aspirations of a group or culture. It could mean a set of doctrines or beliefs but we are not a religion, we are a science. And of those who belong to Farrakhan's group and know these lessons, I'm sure problems would arise in how you prioritize the concepts. For example, one of their brothers tried to explain that the God that made himself out of triple stage darkness was a Muslim. He needs merely to refer to the 37/1-40: Tell us why the Devil teaches the 85% that God is a righteous and unseen being that exist everywhere? Allah is god in the earth and the heavens above, he is just and true and there is no unrighteousness in him; but he is not unseen, he is is seen and heard everywhere for he is the all I seeing. The problem in his statement was the word "Muslim" and a view that the two are separate.
   The word "Muslim" implies that one has God could have a different agenda and has to surrender to Allah's agenda (as the word submit means to surrender to another). The 37th lesson teaches that Allah is one. It teaches that Allah is omni-present or present in all I see. There is no two agendas or beings when Allah made God. It is Allah's will or want that Allah should come into creation as one of those forms of creation. This way Allah lives in creation as the living God. There is no two beings here, Allah is one in the earth and heavens above, so the God would not have to be Muslim and submit to Allah because God Allah are liken to a two sided coin: Though it may have two sides it is merely one coin. All is created from Allah. The issue here is whether or not one is being Self. Lessons 3 to 12 in the one to thirty six makes that clear. The 38th lesson within the one to forty asks Why did God create Devil? Most importantly to show forth and prove his powers. So this indicates the choice to be one Self or not to be while in human form. Now lessons 13-14/1-36 depends on whether you see yourself as consciousness dwelling in physical form or as your soul, the condition reflexes of the persona and the soil which surrounds it. Our flesh, the soul, and our conditions have to be made to submit and by definition are Muslim. We are usually striving to master our composition, but the source of the consciousness (the true Self) is Allah. We are sentient which means conscious and able to be Self Aware. The true Self is Allah. But "the wrong foods" spoke about in the one to thirty-six is how religion was taught to you and your gullibility to go with what the Devil has said:  12th degree in the 1/40 -Why does the Devil teach that?; 7th degree in the 1/36 -Why does he like the Devil?; 8th degree in the 1/36 -Because the Devil planted fear...; 10th degree in the 1/36 -Because the devil taught him how to eat the wrong foods. To us, organized religion is the wrong foods; Knowing and not believing is most proper. In ideology there are concepts, these are ours and if you were the author then they would be yours. We see adversity as that which helps us to know about where the omnipotent or power is based. We study life as a science which leads back to the omniscient that we are in essence. We are getting to know about the knowledge present in everything (omnipresent) as a vehicle to get to know the Self. We do not submit to Self, we become ourselves because we are looking for the proper order, which is the definition of right and righteous-- because that is our true identity. But since Farrakhan's Muslims don't know who's teachings they are going to go by and how much of the organized religion of Islam they are going to follow, they don't see the same intricacies because their view is obstructed by what the Devil has taught and the trader interprets. Why even the Bible states: "From the Dust ye came to the dust ye shall return, but the spirit will go back to that which gave it." Wouldn't you say that consciousness resides in the soul? So which one are you, the soil or the sentient being inside the soul? See, these followers are not sure who to follow and will even give up on the truth of the lessons which makes them unique-- if Farrakhan says so So how can they stake claim for our heritage when they don't even reason things out on their own or respects what Allah, in the persons of Master Fard provided? When Allah came in the persons of Lieutenant Abdullah, we were taught to research it ourselves: "Study to show thyself approval," the Bible states See this is what happens when your leader doesn't advocate to think for yourself, just follow the ritual... No wonder the First Born stayed away from any real affiliation with the NOI: look how confused their perspective is now. Even their first resurrected doesn't affiliate with them. Farrakhan's Muslims can't stake claim for our system, because they don't grasp our major concepts and don't know which system they want to be under or how to properly define the term "God" they loosely use interchangeably with Muslim (as though they mean the same). I guess they had to accept that, given the state of unawareness they were in when they were taught and who's guidance they are and will be under.
    Knowledge is the Foundation and this is symbolic to the Sun, from the darkness came the light. This process of going through darkness to experience and understand the light is for Allah as God to grow into His magnificence (while savoring the experience). The metamorphosis or adaptation God uses is discovering what is right within his own conscious realm. Maybe on an grasping level one might use the words, you have to surrender or Muslim but from a God Awareness level, it is reasonable the only thing that would work appropriately-- that's a "no brainer" (it takes no effort to figure that out unless you are stuck in the flesh). What we need to know is who we really are, the awareness of what is right, and that's what we came here to experience, from Nigger to man, from man to God and God to Allah. Allah and God are one just in different worlds that operate in different ways but the laws which governs it was made by Allah-- God was made so Allah could experience the law in its magnificence. God is a project of understanding culture (rules which govern things, laws principles etc.) and growth, so one could get to know Self.
   If a person wants to look at things from the view of his earthly form, then I guess he would be the same as his body to him and therefore would proclaim Muslim. If he sees himself as the consciousness on a quest to experience knowledge then he would see himself as God (the growth vehicle) then Allah (the source of the growth). It is hard Farrakhan's Muslims to grasp this because they are mixing too many formulas whose concepts are conflicting. They have the words in the degrees they put down, trying to be like other Muslims, but the concepts are not grasped because they don't primarily live by them. They use the term "God" now, but they have not properly explored what that means. When consciousness came into physical form, part of the attention was split and God/man became subject to time. That too is growth and focus. All things in life are dual, so as said before, it depends on your focus. We choose the purpose and reason for coming into form in the first place, as our identity, but Farrakhan's Muslims wouldn't know this because they are trying too hard to just be Muslim. They have separated the creator from the creation when Allah made all creation from Self. Allah is all knowing, the source of all power, and present as all I see (or present everywhere), yet is one. All the major religions agree. Farrakhan's Muslims are too busy changing along with Farrakhan personal journey, while putting down what Allah, in the persons of Master Fard, gave to The Honorable Elijah Muhammad.
  The NOI introduction after Student Enrollment or Lost Found Lesson Number One and English C Lesson Number One uses the words Muslim very frequently, but once you advance in your classes and see the Lost Found Lesson Number Two, it only appears in the 16th degree for those who are still going under that study as laborers along with the Muslim's sons who are on the right track. The rest is strictly about God and Devil and what each teaches and why these parameters were constructed. Father Allah took the written dialog between Allah and the Honorable Elijah Muhammad (a proven document to Allah's satisfaction) and made it our corner stone-- but each man, to be God, must weigh and judge it on his own. We don't use a trader or minister to make an interpretation. Allah came back on his eighty-seventh earth day but you didn't accept him and forsake what the Honorable one gave you.

Peace,
Universal

The 41st Annual Show & Prove

A couple weeks have now passed since the 41st Annual Show & Prove in Mecca (Harlem, NY) and now that I've gathered my thoughts I wanted to add on alittle about my experience being there.

I've been going to Show & Prove's on and off for years since I've gotten KOS (Knowledge of Self) and each year that I've gone it's gotten more and more Progressive. When I say "Progressive" I'm speaking about Gods and Earths truly adding-on to our Nation with actual, tangible goods and services, not just lip service. I arrived in Mecca early that day to help Volunteer and met DJ Wise (one of the Main Organizers) at the Harriet Tubman School (Event Venue) where he gave me and a Queen named Serenity some instructions on what we could do and what to expect from the day's Events. Another thing that was beautiful to cee was the Progress Gods/Earths are making in their respective Regions in regards to teaching others. I had the pleasure of meeting Universal Family who came from all over the United States, many who we've only communicated with Online, and it was great to add-on with them in person. I also enjoyed the Science/Educational Fair where our Youth created different Science Projects to display not only their creative genius b.u.t. also their understanding of how these Sciences of Life coincide with our Cultural Worldview! I want to say Peace to the young God 'Understanding Allah' who showed me his Project about the phases of the Moon!! In addition to a board showing/explaining the different phases he also created a looking glass like device out of a shoe box where you could look in each side (North,East,West,South) to view a dangling object that represented a lighted, semi-lighted, darkened phase of the Moon. Another young Queen demonstrated her Project where she showed us how clouds are created; she actually made clouds inside of a soda bottle. Again I want to say PEACE to all the Youth (and Parents) who participated in the Science/Educational Fair!! Our Annual Show & Prove was created with this Educational Component as the centerpiece of our Event and it would not be what it is without all of your hard work, dedication, sacrifices and creative genius to make it possible.



The Science of Self

One of the highlights of the Show & Prove was definitely the release of the highly anticipated Book "The Science of Self" (SOS). I had an opportunity to get a Signed, Limited Edition Hard Cover copy so I was definitely happy about that! Since I've had it it's been hard to put it down. I've had so many thoughts about the Science of Self I thought it best to list some of these considerations as bullet points for those who have it or are interested in getting it, and I do suggest you do get it if you're person who considers yourself Conscious. Here's my points:

• The Science of Self is a Game Changer for the Conscious Community. Over the years I've been ceeing Pseudoscience, Meta/Cosmophysicians, New Ageists, Illuminatiologists, Western Science Quoters, Quasi-Gods/Earths, Ghetto Scholars and etc.. all promoting concepts that clearly aren't real Science. This Book doesn't separate the real from the fake. It does one better, it teaches you how to think critically and use the scientific method to separate the real from the fake for yourself.

• The Science of Self Volume One (of a Five Set Volume) alone has 377 References. This means that it's not a Book you just Read, it's a Research Manual and something you should continually refer WHICH INCLUDES looking into the References in the back that corroborate the Information inside the Book.

• The Science of Self introduces the outside Observer into the Pedagogy (Teaching Method) and Worldview of our Culture. Because our usage of terms such as Allah, God, Divine and etc.. sometimes People assume that we are a Religious Group, Muslims, etc.. and anything other than what we actually are. Well we are Scientists of Life living a Culture and this Book puts to rest any notions that we are Followers or that there's anything Religiously Dogmatic about our critical thinking or orientation as a Group.

• The Science of Self has raised the bar in regards to how People will gain/get KOS within our Nation. Many of us (Gods/Earths) say we're Scientists and that's true on some levels. Yet when it comes to the Sciences of Mathematics, Cosmology/Cosmography, Ontology, Fractals, Quantum Mechanics, Physics, Geology, Chemistry, Genetics, Sociopolitics and etc.. that may not be our strong suit. We may not be proficient in understanding these Concepts, how they apply to Self and how to teach them to others. This Book helps elevate our Consciousness to do so and connect with those who're already doing this.

• The Science of Self shows and proves and teaches us how to show and prove many things in 120 Lessons.

• The Science of Self is THE MOST comprehensive set of Volumes ever created dealing with "The Science" of Self.

These are just some of the benefits that come along with this Book and there are other things I will be writing about in the future. When I first got KOS back in the Pre-Google Era Me and my Enlightener would spend countless hours in the Library Researching/Referencing many of the same subjects introduced/elaborated on in The Science of Self. Before I even got my Student Enrollment or was given Supreme Mathematics I was studying Cosmology/Cosmography, Physics, Quantum Mechanics, Chemistry, Ontology and etc.. because my Enlightener recognized that grasping the Science of my Self was paramount to me understanding who I was as The Original Man, my Relationship to/in the Human Family, the Planet Earth and the Universe. He recognized this because that's how his Enlightener taught him and this has been the Hallmark and Expectation of my Family Tree since we began. So knowing that the ALife and Supreme Understanding were putting out some Volumes covering much of the same intellectual territory and study materials I've covered throughout my Growth & Development was excellent to hear! With the Science of Self I could now consolidate the Curriculum I've used over the years to and utilize this as a Primary Syllabus Book to introduce People to KOS.

In Conclusion, for those of my Universal Family who weren't able to make it out to the Show & Prove this year willfully you'll be able to make it out in years to come. Those who I know personally or have ceen your works, I know you were addin-on in your respective Regions. I want to thank all of the Gods/Earths who took a moment to introduce themselves to me, exchange math, network and just let me know how much they appreciate the things that I've done and am doing. I really appreciated all the love and encouragement!!

Peace,
Saladin

Original Cover Design by Otis 'Blaqlion' Arterberry III

Experiments with High Explosives

-TheChronicles of a 'Big Headed' Scientist-

This is an excerpt from Journal Log Entry #4 (…mist which the naked eye could hardly detect...). It's a candid Conversation between Ramadyn and True Equality about one of their God Brothers named 'Just' who's alittle naive when it comes to Women.

“Yo it’s funny you ask that though. Me and Just was building this morning and I don’t know if he built with you yet b.u.t. he wanted you to build with Cee Wisdom.”

“You mean ‘Ya-Ya’ God?” she said sarcastically. “You know that ain’t right Queen” I said laughing.

“What God?! I told Just a loooong time ago that ‘Ya-Ya’ would always be 67 million miles away from the Sun. Just seems to believe he can ‘make’ Earth so what can I do about that?” True Equality said while shruggin’ her shoulders. She continued, “If I went over there and tried to build with that female about Mathematics she’ll act like I’m tryin’ to cause trouble amongst her and Just and strive to have us tryin’ to fight and kill one another. All I’ll do is tell the God what I told him from the door; You can’t make a ‘Ho’ into no ‘Home’ of Islam!”

“You, are, off, the, hook, Queen! Be nice Queen.” I said, holding my stomach in laughter.

“I told Just that without ‘me’ meaning ‘what I stand for as a Black Woman’ all you get is a ‘Ho’ and half a ‘Home’! Word is bond God, it got me heated just thinking about how he got that destroy power chick over his rest like that knowing that the only thing she sincerely love is his divine eye and the cream he be giving her!

This is an excerpt from Journal Log Entry #7 (...its high speed of rotating makes it impossible.). Ramadyn is pondering his loneliness and lack of intimacy while sharing his feelings about coming to terms with some life changing information he just received. It's an island abyss where sometimes you can't even depend upon the sanity of your own thoughts.

     Dealing with the lack of intimacy in my life at that time was like trying to kick a heroin addiction. Many nights I tossed and turned in my bed visualizing Divinity and wishing that she were lying beside me. On a few occasions I’d have a fling b.u.t. I’d always come back to my senses. Messing around never filled the emptiness I felt inside and these quasi- relationships always ended as abruptly as they’d began. I just couldn’t keep consummating situations that my Heart wasn’t in.

     Cee, one twenty is a ‘map’ that only infers the emotional ‘terrain’ of our two forty and we get the understanding of this wilderness by ourselves. Many Gods methodically quote one hundred twenty Degrees b.u.t. I learned to live one hundred and twenty Lessons. I’ve felt the subtle mist never drawn above six in the pit of my stomach. I experienced the joy of ceeing the Planet first founded and I recognize the expression of a baby being fed the wrong foods. True Gods and Earths stand to be corrected about this ‘map’ and add on knowledge about its ‘terrain’. Although I added on what True Equality dropped on me, that knowledge locked me in a seat of an emotional rollercoaster; a ride I had to have the stomach for regardless of whom or what! I had to respect True Equality for not making knowledge born to me sooner because I definitely wouldn’t have had the strength to deal with hearing about Divinity.

     I went from feeling angry, frustrated, sad, jealous to strait up dumb at a terrific speed and there were still painful questions swirling around in my Third. I was nowhere near 20 miles outside of this situation and being a Scientist was the last thing on my Mind. At that moment I was nothing b.u.t. a hopeless romantic, caught up in my emotions and ready to mount a crusade to save the Queen from a burning castle.

     As True Equality left my rest I could feel myself slowly sinking into a deep, dark, pit of loneliness. I really needed a God to build with so I could restore my self esteem and gain my Godly perspective back. True Equality’s words felt like daggers piercing my Heart and my feelings for Divinity had me doubting who I was.

Below are some excerpts from my Book "The Beholder; a Book of Poetry, Prose and Philosophy"

The Beholder

The World in all its majesties is never as mysterious as we

assume it to be. Even though our Heart is at times unrevealed

and the weight of our words & actions undefined, the Truth will

eventually be unveiled. We are the Truth in which we seek.

Many People's concept of Righteousness is NOT GETTING CAUGHT!

Life and Living

Your Life is the source of many inspirational insights! You may be a Single Mother with 3 children, someone working as a Bartender, you Breed Cats, you traveled to Hawaii, you were in Prison 5 Years, you make a living teaching Singing Lessons, maybe you're in Coast Guard or etc. Always keep in Mind that what you may take for granted is an amazing story/experience to someone else! Sharing your Life is Living.

The Dream Dreams The Dreamer

I never believed that each person is predisposed to any given station in life. To look back at our Life along with all its variables, each person would see a perfectly written script from Incarnation to wherever they presently stand. Even the most chaotic experiences will began to make perfect sense. As we gaze into our future we will see an inkless tablet, yet it is solely our responsibility to decide Who, Why, When, Where and How that script shall be written.

Relativity…

One thing that's common between many Religions/Cultures is that their most fundamental and significant Relationship is between God and Earth; Creator and Creation. It is through this Sacred Bond that forces of nature nurtures Life!

Try Knowledge of Self! I promise to give you a full refund on your ignorance if it doesn't work.

Sankofa

Met on an unassuming Sunday

She was wrapped in a way to tickle Allah’s attention

Did the knowledge from afar with Cliff Notes and Godly radar

The science was ‘6’ b.u.t. high explosive experiments

She was slick, moved just within an earshot to smuggle some of the Math I got

I stopped and let the newborn who build a lot, add-on to keep the cipher warm, word is bond and bond is life

I cee you and you cee me

There was no lie between our eyes

You front like you can’t cee

The truth became revealed when your thoughts went into motion

You’re celestial like a Planet and smooth like aloe vera lotion

Time and Space is of no relevance within my dimension

Didn’t mention who I am ‘cuz you ain’t ready

Keep it steady as I aim for your heart

I paint your desires like it’s art

Just like your picture

Fulfilled your scripture
Descended in your realm when I met you, also brought form the jewels of Life I casted like a spell…
I swell your Mind with the things I cee, and say
Your innocent play and determined ideas I mode like clay
We are the Future
The Past and this Present Life
My Kingdom needs a Queen and on the Earth a Wife
When my Mind detects your feelings, vibrations of your emotions
Don’t restrict your perception, my body’s just a vehicle my mental plane just coasts in
Transcend my physical form, keep your thoughts warm in a dark womb in your Mind
The blind don’t know exist
Reality is fixed
My understanding distills in the form but my ideas remain a mist
Cee all things are added unto you
I’ll build a way of life around you to support you

Racism

     One of the worst kinds of Racist are those Environmentalists and Conservationists that spend millions of dollars going all out to Save Plant/Animal Life yet won't spend a dime to save the endangered Lives of Indigenous (First World) People and their Descendants -the original Environmentalists who successfully Conserved this Planet for millions of years before they got here.

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Thanks & Peace!
Saladin

Experiments with High Exposives

The Chronicles of a "Big Headed" Scientist

Below is an excerpt from the Narrative Story "Experiments with High Explosives; The Chronicles of a 'Big Headed' Scientist". This excerpt is from pages 1 through 5 of the First Journal Log Entry (First Chapter) entitled "The Earth is approximately covered..."

     It’s been said that “Love” is the highest degree of Understanding. What’s usually unsaid is the “Hell” you may go through to get it “Right”.

     I met her on a sunny day in late May. It was the kind of cloudless Spring day when the trees seemed to bud overnight and the colorful flowers bloomed with the multilayered fragrances of new life. As the wind blew with a gentle breeze, you could cee the sigh of relief on the faces of winter hostages along the streets of Bethlehem.

     She was wearing a long ankle length gold & green skirt, a gold & green head wrap and a vintage opal ring on her right ring finger. Her bohemian like shirt was gold and she carried a crocheted handbag that matched her shawl and hemp colored sandals. Her complexion was caramelized. She had large almond shaped eyes and carried a sensuous smile that would melt an iceberg. When she walked she gently swayed her hips. Her body language had a sense of regalness and she moved intuitively graceful, slow and deliberate.

“DANG!” I thought to myself. “This Queen is fly!”

     When a Man comes into the Knowledge of himself, his self esteem is off the meter and his confidence is like the first Great Sun that borned the Universe. I wasn’t a Newborn when Queen Divinity came strolling into my life; I had one twenty for over a decade, was refined with my Math and was shining like a seasoned vet in the NBA. B.u.t. regardless of all of that, this Queen had me alittle shook! Her stunningness had me second guessing myself. I ain’t talking about sweatin’ bullets, I’m talking about the split second insecurity of checking your gear, ceeing if there’s food in your teeth and smelling your breath. That split second of insecurity was synonymous with loosing time searching and ‘trillions of years’ ain’t nothing b.u.t. a whole bunch of these seconds.

     Meeting Divinity and the current of air she came in was the first red flag that joggled my Mind. It was the only sign I needed to draw her angle up from the door ‘b.u.t.’ I didn’t and this very ‘b.u.t.’ is what preceded the tumultuous rain, hail, snow and earthquakes I experienced with this Woman. Cee, it’s always ‘the high’ that makes a Man experiment with ‘explosives’ and that illogic made me just like any other John. Laying in my bed thinking about this surah in my Koran, I remembered our first conversation like it was yesterday; I was in downtown Bethlehem, standing on the train platform by the Square and there she was: built like a home in Heaven.

     I did the knowledge on her from a distance as she approached the platform. The closer she got, I lowered my gaze to maintain being the piece. She just knew she was magnetic and I could tell by her air of confidence that she probably knew this for a while. I’d ceen Women who came off with confidence before b.u.t. with her I could tell it was deeper than believing it on face value. I wasn’t sure if Knowledge of Self gave her a shot in the arm, if she was in a Love or just an Afrocentric Feminist. Although I had become quite cynical about the whole ‘Earth being equal to my Home circumference’ idea, these thoughts ran across my Mind. So like all true Scientists, I had to investigate. I had to know for sure.

     When I first got Knowledge of Self I would binge build. I’d build until I was blue in the face -especially when I had a cheerleader on the sidelines. Once a female would cee how obsessed I was with running my mouth she’d quietly help me construct my own pedestal, shape and mold herself into my own image and likeness and stroke my Ego until I thought I was the only Man in the World. It took me years of bumps, blackened eye’s and bruised filled surahs to understand that a pedestal only makes your fall harder.

     I had my first Earth when I was twenty and fresh off of Pluto. She was an eighteen year old understanding seed named ‘Mandeep Desai’. Mandeep was a third generation Indian from Punjab who used to be a Bible thumping Jehovah Witness before I started building with her. She had a clear buttermilk complexion, shapely, petite and a stone cold freak. I had a studio apartment off campus when we first met. One Saturday morning she and her partner stopped by my mini Kingdom to drop off a Watchtower and share the good news. She caught my eye from the door so I invited them in to listen to what I already knew.

     Her partner was a clean shaven, nerdy looking Colored Man wearing coke bottle glasses and a brown high water suit. He was obviously schoolin’ her because she rarely opened up her mouth. Mandeep looked very conservative. She had on a long blue flowery dress, black stockings, black flats and her long black hair pinned up in a bun. Sitting there like a novice, I would give her eye contact every now and then to telegraph my interest in the subject matter; her! After about the third visit only one of ‘em came back to visit me after that. It wasn’t the Colored Man nor was it for Saturday morning Bible Study.

     Mandeep and I got close at a terrific speed and she wanted to have sex damn near three times a day. In between our sex-capades I mustered up the strength to mention Triple Darkness, tell her alittle about The Father and ration her off Supreme Mathematics. I rationalized being her Enlightener her b.u.t. the reality was the sex had me roped and bound in. At times we wouldn’t come outside for days. We’d just lay up my room in a smokey daze, loosing track of time in an opium house-like hedonist high. We both knew she really didn’t want Knowledge of Self. As a matter of fact, I never stopped to ask her. She believed that once she got me in the realm of ‘six’ it was a wrap and that wasn’t far from the truth. I figured that however long it took her to knowledge one twenty, which she wasn’t gonna do, there was no said birth record to the sex I was getting. We had our own agendas and the bedroom was our negotiation table. Aside from the bad break-up with my high school sweetheart I was trying to get over, I chose to deal with Mandeep like that because my loins were burning like the hot Arabian Desert. Deep down inside I wanted to be serious about her b.u.t. I couldn’t. Mandeep would say, “You’re the only one I ever did this with” b.u.t. she was just too good to be true. I knew that if it took me time to get swift with my Lessons it took her time to get swift the Lessons she was teaching me inbetween the sheets.

     Mandeep knew what the science was from the door so she could never really say I took advantage of her or led her in the wrong direction. Unlike some Gods, I came ‘In the name of A.L.L.A.H.’ and made it perfectly clear that I ain’t seriously adding a female on if she didn’t know her Lessons. As far as the sex was concerned…, I taught freedom and didn’t build a prison house. Besides, this female was determined to be successful in her sexual undertakings so who was I to argue with that? Gods ain’t eunuchs.

     That game lasted for about a year until the bottom fell out when Mandeep started to act like a shaky Student Enrollment, ‘Who Shot John?’ Conversation and that Punjabi power u qualified her as a said person of that ability. It took the ingenuity of an escape artist b.u.t. I dropped her like a bad habit when I broke outta the sexual headlock she had me in. A few months after we stopped so-called building Mandeep almost immediately changed her name to ‘Ahdaiyah’ and married this Hebrew I graduated with named ‘Asiel Gavriel’. Getting under a New Man to get over an Old one was one thing, b.u.t. Marriage seemed extreme. And even though I dropped her it still bothered me that she could move on so quick. Of course that brush with a mental death didn’t stop my self delusions b.u.t. it made me alittle more cautious of the games I chose to play.

     I hadn’t ceen Mandeep for several years until we crossed paths at an Alumni Event. When Mandeep saw me pulling up on Campus she lost it. She left her twins in the stroller, dropped her toddler’s hand and ran over to give me this long, uncomfortable, pelvis rubbin’ hug right in front of her Husband. Mandeep’s dissatisfaction was beyond obvious and she was a shadow of her former self. She was about 60 lbs. heavier, locked down with  three babies and gazing up at me with an unaccomplished look in her longing eyes.

     This was the first time I began to really cee how dissatisfaction can born a Devil. This female was boldly trying to holla at me in front of her Family! I began to think to myself, “If she would do this, there is no limitation to what she or People like her might do to change their situation. A ‘determined idea’ is some shit!” Another thing I began to ponder was how Women love to call Men dogs -as if all the Devils on the island of Pelon were ‘manufactured’. The reality is, many of these Devils were ‘womanufactured’ b.u.t. these other rules and regulations were simply too diabolical to mention in that Lesson. There was no doubt in my Mind that Mandeep would have dropped her Family for me that day and all she needed was for me to be a savage in the pursuit of her happiness.

     The day I met Divinity I had games like this outta my system, so I thought. I was fed up with the fake ass sincerity and the mirage covered desert  disguised as the best part. I became indifferent. I was a point in my Koran where all I began to hear was thunder above my head when females opened up their mouth. This is how I felt b.u.t. something about Divinity intrigued me. I knew there was something behind her smile and I had to find out what it was.

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Parenting; L.I.E.U.T.E.N.A.N.T.

"The Duty of the Lieutenant is to 'Teach' and also 'Train' the Private Soldier" (13/1-14)

One thing about my Parents they never co-signed or ignored anything they thought wasn’t Right and Exact. At times they’d bomb me and my siblings about something or walk us through the reason and logic of something so we can cee it for ourselves. When I was in High School one time the Police came to my house looking for one of my Brothers. Me and my Ole Earth were sitting on the front porch when they walked up. They humbly asked my Ole Earth was he here and she said, “Oh yeah, he’s right inside.” Next thing you know they were escorting my Brother out of the house and he had this “Save Me!” look on his face. What was my Ole Earth’s response? She looked dead at him, turned her head and started to sing ‘Gangsta Lean’ (“this is dedicated to my homies…”) and started to pour her coffee out on the porch like a libation. I, was, horrified! I could not believe that she could be so heartless and unaffected by the Police taking my Brother, her child, away and it took me years to understand her logic. I cried and was angry all at the same time. I was upset and Brother was going to jail and I was upset my Ole Earth sat back and didn’t do anything about it, in fact, she clowned him.

This story haunted me until I had my own children and became a Parent myself. As a Parent, I learned that there were strategies to raising children and that as they grew older I had to update many of these strategies to better address their needs. Reflecting back on my Brother being taken away, that was his own doing. My Ole Earth had consistently talked to him about various choices he was making and her words couldn’t stop him. Unfortunately, he had to put his own Theories to the test and found out for himself that there wasn’t a right way to do wrong. My Ole Earth was simply wise enough to not get in the way of him getting his comeuppance. She also had the integrity to never lead him in the wrong direction by allowing him to think that his logic wasn’t flawed. She, like my Ole Dad, always gave him, us, something to think about… Yes there were times we got an ass whuppin’ and there were many more times that it was explained, suggested or jokingly expressed to us how our choices could/would result in Life whuppin’ our ass. The older I become the more I respect my Parents ability to help prepare me (and my siblings) for the Life I’m leading today!

Teaching and Training are two entirely different things. Teaching is like direct current in electricity; it goes one way from Teacher to Student. Training is like alternating current; it goes both directions as transferring, receiving and vice versa. Teaching involves information being disseminated while Training involves hands on activities, being engaged, participation and interaction with that information. While all Training involves Teaching, not all Teaching includes Training. The emphasis on the Lieutenant’s Role within the 13/1-14 is to convey the importance that the learning the process involves not simply knowing certain information b.u.t. learning how to use it. From a Parenting Perspective, this is equivalent to letting our children know about certain information about Life and showing them how to Live. One of the Mantras my Parents lived by was, “If you’re Wrong you’re Wrong. I’m not going to support you in Wrongdoing just because you’re my child.” What this translated into is that I couldn’t depend upon my Parents to have my back and speak up for me if I was in the Wrong, especially when it was something I (and they) already knew was Wrong because we already discussed it. If what I did Wrong wasn’t previously discussed, they’d treat the results as a Lesson learned (willfully) and they’d always add-on some addendums just in case I still wasn’t convinced. Cee, in my household we actually had ‘Family Meetings’ where my Parents and 6 siblings would get together and just talk about various things. One of our favorite Games my Ole Earth introduced to us was called ‘The Book of Questions’. The Book of Questions was just that, a Book of almost 300 questions about life situations where you had to give your Perspective on what you would do in certain circumstances. For example, there might be a questions in there like, “If you had to lose one sense what would it be and why?” or “If you had 24 hours to live what 3 things would you do?” Boy that was fun and I didn’t realize until I was probably in my twenties that my Ole Earth, the Trained Psychologist and Sociologist, was using that ‘Game’ as a way to Profile us and assess our Principles and Values. It also provided many teachable moments for my Parents to address some of these ideas that would be a problem for us now and somewhere down the line. My upbringing wasn’t restricted or religious. I was raised to be aware, discerning and to take responsibility for the results of my choices.

Another valuable Parenting Methods my Parents taught me was the ability to maintain their Integrity without co-signing Bullsh*t; their ability to communicate, verbally or non-verbally, their stance on certain issues without alienating themselves from me as their child. We had our conflicts yet they did an excellent job at maintaining our Relationship. For example, in High School I came home one time itchin’ like I had fleas and my Ole Earth stopped me in the kitchen and asked me what’s wrong. I said, “Nothing” and she looked me in the eye and said, “You better be happy you ain’t get something you can’t get rid of; you could’ve got the Monster! Now I already told you about messin’ with those ‘skanks’ out in the street. When you go upstairs you better not use any of our soap, rags, towels or toilet. You better ask one of your boys do they got something for that or go to the Drugstore and get something to get rid of it.” After that incident she’d joke with me once in a while about my lack of observation skills. She, nor my Ole Dad, never put themselves on a pedestal as if they never made poor choices and still didn’t make poor choices. Most times they were very Understanding and made it clear they were here to help guide us as their children -and they made many sacrifices to do so. They didn’t just dictate what we should/shouldn’t do nor did they sit back and let us say/do whatever we wanted; they had a wise way of giving us options to do things that they could live with. And if we took it too far, they’d always leave a lifeline if we wanted to come back. Rarely did they try to ‘save us’ from ourselves, especially when they already made Knowledge Born to us about what we got ourselves into. Some of the coddling, doting and co-signing I cee Parents doing today with children who are oftentimes saying/doing things that are completely unacceptable or outright disrespectful was ‘publically’ rare when I was growing up. It was clear who the Parent and who the Child was. It was also clear who the Parent was and who was no longer a Child as they got older.

In my travels I’ve ceen and heard many Parents defend certain Principles and Values to the death yet when their own child(ren) are doing the complete opposite they change their tune... They didn’t change it because their child(ren) somehow gave them more insight into a Phenomena they previously didn’t understand. They changed their tune to make an exception or excuses because it’s their child(ren). Basically it’s not really that Wrong or Bad when “their child” is doing it so there was a biasness with “their child” that wasn’t extended to other children. I’ve ceen Parents talk about how Wrong Parents are for letting their teenage daughter get pregnant yet they’re letting their teenage son’s girlfriend spend the night over the house. I’ve heard Parents throw boys under the bus about calling females “bitches”, hear their own child saying “bitch” and they act like they don’t even hear it. Maybe these Parents don’t know how to address these contradictions, maybe they’re making exceptions/excuses because it’s their child. Maybe they honestly don’t cee the contradiction or maybe they really just don’t even care. Whatever the reasoning is, if we’re Parents that advocate certain Principles and Values yet turn around and allow our child(ren) to undermine those Principles and Values within our household, we are signaling to them that these Principles and Values aren't worthy of being honored/respected in the first place. On a very practical level, this is the wrong Attitude and Information we’re Teaching our children and Training them to take into the World. One of the main Lessons our children should learn from us is ‘Integrity’. It is those children who don’t learn this sense of fortitude (Integrity) who become most receptive to the uninhibited ways of this World… There was never a time when my Parents ignored something or turned a blind eye to something that was Wrong. If they ceen or heard it they checked it and if it wasn’t Right & Exact they weren’t co-signing it or promoting it. This is not to say my Parents were always right. There were definitely times me and my siblings had to educate them too and they weren’t always receptive either. Because they always encouraged communication, they kept a good pulse on what was going on inside our hearts and heads. We couldn’t just walk in or around the house not saying anything or keeping our thoughts and feelings to ourselves. Even if I wanted to my Parents set up specific Procedures, Traditions and Customs to keep our lives open and transparent. One of them was sitting down eating Dinner together.

The bottom line is that the ultimate support we can give our children is the Truth. If something isn’t Right & Exact then let it be known and don’t support what isn’t. Sometimes our children already know what’s up b.u.t. will present situations to us just to cee if we’ll confirm what’s Right & Exact. People do this all the time and they’re somebody’s child, so YES our children do it too! It’s better for their feelings to be hurt about what’s Right then to let them walk around feeling good about what’s Wrong. Ignorance on our part or theirs must never be an option. As a Parent, if something happened to them under those circumstances it would be hard to forgive yourself when you knew better (Ezekiel 3:18, St. Luke 12:47). Some Parents interpret this to mean, “Lock your child down” which is not what I’m saying, especially when they’ve reached their Teens and are starting to assert their Autonomy and make decisions on their own. At this stage in the Game telling them what to do and how to do it is not the most effective way to deal with them. Don’t believe me, try it and cee the results you’ll get. At this stage it’s more about our ability to negotiate, reason and walk them through the logic/illogic of their decisions. This is why I emphasized the importance of ‘Integrity’; it’s difficult to negotiate, reason and walk someone through the logic/illogic of things that we haven’t demonstrated a clear stance on. For example, it’s difficult to check a Teenager about running the streets if you’re beating them out of the door and it’s a challenge to teach your son about treating a Woman like a Queen when you really aren’t sure what a Queen is and don’t talk about or treat Men like Kings. These questions will come up and as Parents we must be prepared and know how to handle these conversations. Telling a five year old, “Because I said so” may work b.u.t. for a Teenager you probably just gave them a License To Ill. Many of the dysfunctional Relationships I cee between Parents and Children is simply because the children view us (Parents) as Bullsh*tters. Sometimes they have a legitimate reason why they think this because some of us actually are. Other times we’ve earned ourselves that Title by default simply because we refused to check our Children about some Bullsh*t they’re saying or doing.

In conclusion, if we let things slide with our Children we will slip as Parents. My Ole Earth had a very humorous way of checking me that made me think about my decisions I’ve made or she suspected I might make WITHOUT telling what to do. She trusted my ability to discern because she and my Ole Dad invested time to equip me with the proper information to correct errors. When I went away to College they drove me 8 ½ hours away from home and dropped me off. It was for Football Camp, a month before Classes started; the first time I saw this place and the first time I was that far away from home. I never felt so alone and was insecure about what to do b.u.t. my Parents obviously weren’t. They had all the confidence in the World in me to make the best decisions with my Life and strive to do what’s Right & Exact. Of course I didn’t make those decisions all the time b.u.t. I made them enough to be here doing what I’m positively doing today. Even though some of you may have had a different upbringing or weren’t able to depend upon your Parents, you can change that with your children. Regardless how we were raised and where we came from it’s important to be better for the next Generation. This starts with being impartial to the Truth. If you think Homosexuality isn’t Right & Exact then find an effective way to communicate this to your child that’s doing it. It’s Wrong to criticize others for doing it and then get quiet or defensive when your own child’s name comes up. Our children aren’t always going to do what we expect them to do, we didn’t do everything our Parents expected us to do. There comes a point in our children’s growth/development where the only Resources they’ll have from us to help them navigate and make sense of their lives is 1.) Our Experiences and 2.) Our Words echoing in the back of their Minds. As Parents, it’s important to make sure these Experiences are something we're willing to let them live with, and our Words are something we’re willing to let them die for...

Peace,
Saladin